Once again has gone so much time.
But I have a reason for that.
I have had really bad time and my depression is coming back
Some of my friends have left me and some of them are getting annoid cause of my depression and panic-disorder.
Especially cause I am scared of new social-situations.
I'm getting really sad, cause everyone has someone..
I mean GF/BF's..It hurts.. So many say that I will never get anyone... I don't want to believe them.. I want to think they are wrong..
But I have noticed it by myself..
Really many avoid me or an eye-contact with me.. Am I really so Fu*king bad?!..
Today I noticed one girl.. She is really different than others and she is bit like me..
I have heard that:
She likes poetry, like I do.
She is depressed, like I am.
She "likes" Death, like i do.
She is dark, like I am.
She wears black all time, like I do.
That is the reason why she makes me think of her.
NOT LIKE THAT!
But.. In a friend kind of way.. You know..?
I don't know what should I think..
What should I feel?..
What should I do?...
Here is questions to all of you, my dear readers.
If ýou know, please tell.
At the end. Here is one poem to you:
When fall falls,
That is the reason,
why I am shy.
He looks the rain and starts crying.
The Nature is never lying.