Apr 23, 2014

Filthy Hearts found eachother

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
As I'm sure you figured out that.. IM EXTRA HAPPY!
I told a little ago that I have a crush..
uhm... Look where we are now!! <3
Here. What a cutie?! 
We listen same kind of music and both like hockey
(We playfully fight about it all th time cause he likes other team and I like other. and the teams against eachother in the finals. o_O)
Something to laugh about in the future then :D

We have commons// Differences:
*Music //  Problems (OFC)
*Style  //Different hockey teams
*Dreams // Age ( He is 21)
*Personality  // He is chill,  I have a Temper 
*Food!!
*Family is important to both of us






ppsssttt.. I Love you Dani <3 






We've been laughing and hanging around for (plz dont laugh) 13  days.
But we match way too good.
It feels like He has always been with me.
Im pretty sure this is just a dream but I try to stay positive :D



Oh and My sisters wedding is coming soon. too soon.
I need a new dress but im broooke.. :c
Any Ideas Anyone?!?! Im gonna be a bridesmade o.o
Me? Can you imagine it? :D I barely can.
(ugh, its hard t type.. im really itchy cause of paint and wood dust.. I've been working on a little project.) I  gonna leave this short. Since it freaking late again. I never learn 

Night my lovelies <3<3

XoXo~

      -Rebella Darkstar 

Apr 7, 2014

Weekend (unnecessary update)

Sooooooo...
I did all kinds of stuff on weekend.

I planted some easter grass.
Cute little ones huh? 
 

Last night I made these cutie cupcakes with my big sister <3

Mmmm.. yummiiieess ...<3 





                                                                                               









I also hang my adorable black panther wallflag over my workspace <3


So fierce but pretty <3


You can also see some roses from my 16th birthday and my other little stuff like marbles :D













Here is another beautiful sunset from last friday, same place same colors but different day <33
goooosssh nature can be so beautiful <33














And ofc what would sunday be without any selfies <3

Rock n roll all the way my darlings <3 My sweet little Rottens <3



















Goodnight, tommorrow is a school day!! <3


XoXo~


-  Rebella Darkstar

Apr 4, 2014

Peace, love and Harmony


I had a pretty crappy day.
Work was rough in a way and boss was not happy,
but when I got out of there I saw a really beautiful sunset.
(sorry for the quality, phone camera)
That actually made me quite happy.
I've had a "Peace, love and harmony" - additude the whole day. 
I even made a cool pendant. 














It 
took me couple hours to do that pendant but I'm proud of it. 
Its a keyring with some cotton string, wooden beads and some natural feathers. ( as you can see OwO)
Looks little bit like a dream cathcer but its so much smaller.
I want to make couple of these to give to my friends :3

That is kinda all I had for today. Work and some beautiful things. I don't always love life but It can still surprise me <3
Goodnight now my honey bee's <3


XoXo~

- Rebella Darkstar

Apr 2, 2014

Dreamers life

I dont understand this anymore.
My life is really wierd by now.
Something about this day disturbes me a lot.
Bus driver, my boss, some random dude... Have been nice to me.
I dont know.

I went to work to do one magazine post and a blog post.
My boss told me I did them really well and blah blah.

I got out of work and went to the buss stop.
Well My bus drove by and I was pissed off.
When the second one came I realized I didnt have the money for the ride. 
I stepped out of the bus but it was still there.
Bus driver opened the door and invited me in.
He said : " You're such a pretty girl I can't leave you freezing outside, hop in"

I came out of the bus and one random dude came there and started flirting with me.
WITH ME?!
Like was he blind?
I know Im pretty but I'm not that pretty.

And about the prettiness:







This look was at my birthday party







This one is from couple days ago <3











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All for now blogdogs <3


XoXo~

-Rebella Darkstar

Only me, simple me. (Update)

Now I had the time to write again.
I've been exreeeeeeeemely busy.
I really want to make a new post that how I'm doing.

Stress:
I have been stressing about so many things.
School is one and probably the biggest thing.
I have been afraid for 6 months that I'm getting kicked out from there.
I have so many missed classes, 12 tests to do and almost 60 hours to make up.
Im afraid that my time is running out and im not going to graduate.
and If I dont graduate my options are really low.
I know I have to make it this year, otherwise I can never have a normal life.
I can't have a job = I cant move on my own = I cant live like my age= I will never be independent.
Thats what I want. I dont want to have a job, but I need it.

Second thing I'm stressing about is my friends and family.
Everything seems fine when someone looks at my realtionships with other but truely Its not how it is. Most of my so called friends are not friends at all. They just hang around with me when they have nothing else to do.
There is some people I miss so much but Im too scared to tell them. Im pretty sure they dont believe me at all. Since words are not as strong as actions.
I hope I could do somethign to prove my feelings for them. 
Prince Robbie, Fry Nordic, Cyber, Rayven and many many others too.
My family and I are doing pretty well. 
I don't fight with them and my sister is still one of the angels in my life.
But still.. Im always worried.

  About my love life:
I don't have anyone right now and it seems I'm not having anyone for a while now.
My 7 month relationship with Rufius did not go as planned but we broke up as friends.
I had one boy but I dont count it as a realtionship because it only lasted for a week.
I was a bandage and not very good one.
I do have a crush on someone but I'm not sure how (s)he feels about me.
Im not telling anything about him/her yet since I dont want to ruin our friendship.


About me:
I am doing quite fine. 
My feelings are quite steady and I'm not so sad all the time.
Yes, I still do have my up's and down's but I know that that is how it's supposed to be.
Because if I didn't it would mean I would be emotionless like I was when I d´still used my depression medication. I stopped taking them about 9 months ago.
I feel like they only made me feel worse. I don't like any kinds of medications because I feel like that any chemichals are only damage for the brain. I have to use some pain medication every now and then cause of my back ( I'll explain it later) and my migrens.
Every chemichal affects how you are as a person.
My back is sort of broken. I tried to kick my older brother but failed epicly and fell on my back. I couln't move much for a week and it still aches every now and then.
Anyone volunteer to massage it? :D
But everything is fine with my body.

Random things:
Im getting a tattoo as soon as I can and strangely this one is not about money.
I got enough for my birthday.
Im 17 now. ( That descripion wont let me change it -.-'')
Im working every now and then at different places.
Now I work with kids and teens ( only girls tho.)
I have given up almost every hobby I had cause of my school, so not much things with music or any other arts.

I think this is enough for now. Simple update.

I love you my sweet readers! <3 I hope someone actually still even reads this :D   


Xoxo~ 
-Rebella Darkstar