May 21, 2014

My Relevations (Warning this is a long one)

Im feeling that I am lost in life.

I dont know what I am, what I wanna be, what to do...
Im just lost. I can't sleep, I can't eat properly.

As you can see this is gonna be an A.N.G.S.T post.
I just dont know what to do with my life...
some people say that I'm never gonna be anything. 

For my friends I just wanna say that I'm sorry for every shitty thing I've done to you
Im not an easy person to live with. Im aware of that
My depression is coming back and even stronger than it was..
SO I can't promise any changes of my behaviour.

I just feel like I have fucked up everyones life.. I try my best to cope in this situation.

One of my (ex) friend said that my sadness is my own fault.
My depression
My bullying
My bad relationships
Everything is my own fault.

Im not saying that I'm not guilty of anything. ofc I am.
My unique style, my odd behaviour and my witchcraft hobby is a taboo around here.
Im pierced and tattooed, smoking and loud girl. Im chubby which in this modern world is not so acceptable.

I am also slightly mentally deficient.
I have underdeveloped gross motor skills.
My balance has not developed in a normal pace.

I have to thank my bestest friends

My beautiful sister Tiia <333

My cutie brother Joona <3

I love you so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so MUCH!! <333
You two are so Important to me and I hope you stay in my life Forever and ever <3

Here is something happy for you :)


The paint is made of food coloring dye and sourcream so its suitable for any ages :3

The only place we got his hand print is his mommys pants :'3 We made mothersday cards :3
Also I draw this poetic picture and colored my hair blonde/black

My new IG: Princess_dead_elf

Couple pictures just to cheer you up :3 
Once again I'm also single.  I think I just dont want to update all of these STUPID relationship statuses here all the time.

Thats all for now. Im thinking about a new video update :3 You'll see later.

Rebella Darkstar~

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