Mar 24, 2017

I am jealous, just like you.

Hey all. Todays topic is something I've had some problems with lately, and that is: Jealousy.

First I'd like to say that I understand why people are jealous. It comes from the times, we were still surviving with our basic instincts. Jealousy is something that has driven us humans forward quite a lot. It comes from our desire to be better. As you probably know, jealousy can be quite a curse too and unfortunately jealousy is a thing that prevents many of us living our lives to the fullest.

There is a lot of things to be jealous about, but it all comes to one same thing: Wanting something that you do not have. It might be something that you might own someday. (for an example: you feel jealous of someones awesome shirt, and you go and buy yourself the same shirt.) Or it could be that you are jealous of attention. You might be jealous of the way someone treats someone else but not you. This is something normal, and everyone of us is jealous about something in our lifetimes. What matters is that, how do you act because of this feeling? What do you do, to get rid of the feeling of being jealous?

When the jealousy is too much? When does it become a problem?
For me personally it has been a problem in different situations. It has been a problem to me, when my ex-partners have been so jealous of me they have stopped me from doing things that make me happy, like seeing my friends. I have lost friends because of jealousy. I lost some of my friends when my ex was so jealous, he did not let me spend ANY time with them. My friends felt abandoned and left. Also some of my friend is my youth were jealous of me having a boyfriend and decided to leave because of that. Jealousy has even been destroying my relationship with my family. In both sides people being jealous of me, or about me, have made things very complicated.

I am not clean myself either. I have ruined things in my own life because I have been jealous too. Actually I still am about certain things. I have been jealous of a lot of things during my life time. When I was a child, I was jealous of how other girls were thin, had pretty clothes, had hobbies, had a lot of friends, had "nicer" toys. I was jealous how other kids had money on field trips, how others went abroad, or their family went to an amusement park. I have never traveled much, and when I think about it I have not been experiencing much at all (well that depends on who I'm comparing myself to.)
I still am jealous about things, only the topics have changed over the years. Yesterday I found myself being so jealous about something, that it made me cry for for a long time. After that I realized something.

Being jealous is normal to us human beings.
The difference is that in our modern society jealousy is not as needed as it used to be. 
I realized that jealousy can be a force driving us to better ourselves if things do not go overboard. You should not be jealous of someones body or life. If you are, I think you should find the rason for it and try to make your own life better for yourself. Don't let jealousy ruin your relationships, dont let jealousy stop you doing things that you enjoy. Find the reasons why you are jealous of something, accept it, let the jealousy go and work towards a better tomorrow, but don't forget to have fun and still keep living in the present. Life happens now.

This is all for now. Thank you for reading and I love you all!

-Rebella Nana Darkstar~